Grief
As I was looking through pictures on my Facebook memories this morning, I ran across a picture of our son, Cameron. I love seeing his pictures, it is a happy/sad feeling. I got to thinking about how in February 2011, I was focused on him graduating and getting things ready for college. I had a thought,’ what if I had known’. Had I known we would loose him what would I have been doing? Of course I would have been more focused on trying to get every moment out of him as I could. I probably would have been a bit obsessed. I would not have been trying to get all of the college stuff ready, I would not have wanted him to work, or to spend time on silly sports. All of the things that made each day normal I would have changed. All of the focus would have been on loosing him.
I am thankful he spent his last months just being normal. Yes, I wish I spent more attention on details but that cannot be changed. I miss him terribly. I am so thankful for the time we had.
Love you.